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The Journey Home

In a cold bed, in a damp room, in a dark house in the depths of a valley I entertained ideas of running away. Away from obligation, responsibility, board payments, job expectations, early mornings and behaving like the grown up that I wasn't. Now I lie in a warm bed, a fire blazing, my two little children fast asleep in their rooms, my husband by my side. I make mental notes on the articles I need to submit, the stories needing to be penned and the friends to be caught up with tomorrow. Both situations are more than 10 years apart, the same girl, the same city. Once abhorred, now adored. It's a bittersweet occasion that the time has come to break routines, cut ties, uplift roots and leave. For the fertile plains, the hometown, the wild coast and small scape city that relentlessly calls my name. Until now the hometown has been a place of Christmases spent wandering through lit-up trees, passing old familiar faces. Some called out and grinned with open arms. Some gave a wa...

Youer Than You

I turned 30 this year. It was that unspoken age for me where I thought I'd feel as though I had made it. Looking back though, that real age was 24 when my biggest concerns were whether I'd nailed the front page that week and who was coming out for drinks on Friday. Life at 30, while more wonderfully fulfilling, was also more complex. I had a beautiful, intelligent child and another on the way. I was married to the man of my dreams, the guy who had been my biggest support and encouragement throughout a decade. I had spent a good few years enjoying career successes and had gone further than I had ever thought I would, and in some respects less (I wasn't Judy Bailey, not even close), but that was OK. We were still traveling. And in partnership with the bank, hubby and I owned the Auckland roof over our heads and it wasn't even leaking. I realise I have trumpeted each milestone like I've found the holy grail to life success. Hashtag winning. I haven't been so f...